when probity versus original sin

When probity versus original sin...
I face it in myself
I fought against myself, what I want to be like during my life
silent, forgiving, be patient,
let others play their rules even it hurts and past over my tolerance
OR
fight, stand up for myself though it will make me seem like a devil
though it'll just waste my time, my energy, my mind
but at least, i speak up to what i feel, make it all clear
what will happen then? i do not know either

all feelings churned inside me
I wanna stay calm, silent, patient, happy
but.. another part of me says..
 "say what you want to say, set your boundaries, don't be intimidated"
But i screwed up.. it's all messed up..
right, i'm going to be like the antagonist, the devil
so i give up...i let them.. keep going their way
and i'll go my own way
just let them see...my way, my rules

i learn

i learn from mistakes

i learn from wrong decisions that i made

i learn from failures

i learn from bad attitudes

i learn from loving

i learn from anger

i learn from missing

i learn from hatres

i learn from patience

i learn from sadness

i learn from spirits

i learn from ego

i learn from having nothing

i learn from trust

i learn from broken hearted

i learn from sin

i learn from foolish

i learn from being hurted

i learn from a relationship

i learn from hopes

i learn from smiling

i learn from giving 

i learn from too much expectation

i learn from disappointment

i learn from misunderstanding

i learn from faithful

i learn from unfaithful

i learn from unlogical thing

i learn from comfort

i learn from dissatisfied

i learn from desire

i learn from uncontrolled feeling

i learn from impossible things

i learn from other people

i learn from my angels

i learn from my sistas

i learn from my parents

i learn from people around me

i learn from life 

and my life...other people's life... teach me a lot.. to learn everyday.. 

:)