When probity versus original sin...
I face it in myself
I fought against myself, what I want to be like during my life
silent, forgiving, be patient,
let others play their rules even it hurts and past over my tolerance
OR
fight, stand up for myself though it will make me seem like a devil
though it'll just waste my time, my energy, my mind
but at least, i speak up to what i feel, make it all clear
what will happen then? i do not know either
all feelings churned inside me
I wanna stay calm, silent, patient, happy
but.. another part of me says..
"say what you want to say, set your boundaries, don't be intimidated"
But i screwed up.. it's all messed up..
right, i'm going to be like the antagonist, the devil
so i give up...i let them.. keep going their way
and i'll go my own way
just let them see...my way, my rules
